Turning Heartbreak & Betrayal Into Lemonade, My Open Letter To Beyonce. . .

You have sung my life. For years you knew everything I was going through and helped me heal. . .at least for the moment.  I relate to you in a way I cannot relate to my best friend.  I too, am in love with a man who cheats.  I too, have stayed. I loved him too much, yet somehow, it was never enough.

I’ve packed his shit with “Irreplaceable” blasting in the background.  I’ve smashed his car with a softball bat while “Lost Yo Mind” was in the distance. “Resentment” was on repeat for weeks and I felt every single word and found myself overcome with emotion. “Poison” stung, I knew he was my poison, I knew he wasn’t good for me, but I kept coming back, wanting more.  I justified staying with “Ring The Alarm” because there was no way in hell I was going to let any other bitch have him.  Not on my watch, not when I have invested years of my life into this man.  I was also, “Crazy In Love” with him.  With each album you released, I listened to you sing the story of my life.

I have spent over 10 years with a man who loves me in the best way, the only way, he knows how to love, but he cheats.  He is irretrievably broken.  He is incapable of real love, Continue reading “Turning Heartbreak & Betrayal Into Lemonade, My Open Letter To Beyonce. . .”