Frustration. . . and an update. . .

So yesterday I did my weekly weigh in and I only lost a half of a pound!  I was beyond frustrated!  I am eating well, gave up carbs and I am on a strict 1200 calorie a day diet.  I exercised 5 days last week, minimum 90 minutes a day! I am just frustrated, but I will not allow myself to give up.  I am hoping my monthly visitor has something to do with this. I went to the gym yesterday and I am off to the gym in a few.

Just wanted to add that Jeff’s book has been completed and is with the editor. This is a very exciting time for us! I am so very proud of him and am so happy I get to assist him in his telling his story.  I have created a fb page for him with updates pertaining to the book and the books release.  Click here to view his page and to read the opening paragraph of his book!  

 

 

4.6lbs Down. . .

Just wanted to give everyone a little update.  I just completed week one of my weight loss journey, and I lost 4.6lbs!  I am excited about this and I am trying not to think of how much longer and how much more I have to go. The truth is, if this was years ago, I would’ve lost 10lbs in a week, but. . . I am not so young anymore.

I worked out 6 out of 7 days at the gym and I found it really helpful by pre-making all of my meals.  I basically gave up bread and sweets and just eat fish and salad.  It’s easier to make good choices when you can open up the refrigerator and just grab something.  I feel as though if I didn’t pre make my food, I wouldn’t have ate well.  This will be the key to my success.

Although I didn’t make it to the gym yesterday, which was weigh in day, I will be going today and the rest of the week. I have a great playlist of music to listen to while I work out and this helps! I must remember it didn’t take a day to put on, so it sure as hell is not going to take a day to take off!

 

 

 

Finding Joy. . .My Weight Loss Journey. . .

I have been overweight for 10 years now.  My weight has fluctuated from 130-230.  I wish I could say it was due to having my youngest son, but the truth is, when I delivered him, I was 170 and I think I came home from the hospital at around 160.  I didn’t gain a ton of weight while pregnant.  Here is me 10 years ago. . .  130lbs-136lbs.  These are the photos he looks at. . .  I miss her.  Back during this time, I thought I was a fat whale. . .

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This one was for Jeff’s eyes only but. . .

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In my 20’s and early 30’s I was a strict Vegetarian.  I exercised at least 5 days a week for 2 hours a day.  I have battled with Bulimia for over 20 years.  I stopped throwing up regularly at 29, but stopped throwing up entirely at 35.  What most people don’t understand about Bulimia is bulimics do not “lose weight” from throwing up, they maintain their weight.  When I was younger,  I was diagnosed with Body Dysmorphic Disorder.  The medical definition of Body Dysmorphic Disorder is “a psychological disorder in which a person becomes obsessed with imaginary defects in their appearance.”  Basically, you can’t really see what you look like when you look into a mirror.  When I was thin, I thought I was fat, and when I got fat, I honestly believe I had no idea as to how fat I became.

As most of you know, my ex was a serial cheater.  He cheated constantly and I believe this played a huge role in my weight gain.  I was depressed because I was with a man, and had a child with a man who had no regard for my feelings.  I was miserable for such a long time and regretted Continue reading “Finding Joy. . .My Weight Loss Journey. . .”